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Some Observations from someone outside the “Bear” – Part of the Gay community [May. 23rd, 2014|03:32 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
[Current Mood |reflective]

I find it interesting when I had made a comment on a post and I get told I overreacted.

Which honestly (We all know that I am very emotional and probably over react all the time)

But.. it amazes me that the person that made the comment to me is the following.
A new to the area 20something guy that fits the typical CUB/bear look
someone that has been widely accepted because he is cute, fits the mold of what “IS WANTED” and basically (NEW MEAT) in town.
This person will probably never understand
What it’s like to be on the outside
A short gay man
A FAT gay man
Be someone that is not made to feel welcome just based on looks
Do I blame him, no.. Would I ever say this to this person.. NO.. It is not his fault.  It just is overwhelming to get that type of response from someone that doesn’t get it.  And to know that the stereotype happens and there is nothing that can be done about it.
It’s one of the reasons that I don’t like Dan Savages’ It gets better campaign, Yes it gets better if you are one of the wanted types and find a place to fit in.  But if you are not one and always made to feel you are on the outside.  IT NEVER GETS BETTER.  Dan is someone that has proven to me that he acts that way.
This post is about this one specific situation.. nothing more.  Yes I know people have invited me and I have not gone to events and get togethers.. its not about that. So please don’t respond with that.  And if you want to unfriend me because I am giving my perspective on MY life.  Go ahead. I already do not post 90% of what I used to because people didn’t agree or understand.  I’m not going to give up the remaing amount that I do post.
Believe me if I could blow sunshine and rainbows out my ass all the time I would.  Life would be a lot better let me tell ya.
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GIVEN UP ON FAMILY that is never held accountable for their own actions [Feb. 4th, 2013|01:51 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
SO
I waited almost a year before I tried to join the Disneyland Diaries
group that our family is in... Crystal accepted the request and even
posted a pic of me colt and Amy riding splash mountain.. Kelly made
comments as well as Amy and Vicky and others.. by the time I got home
from work.. AMY had kicked me out of the group again.. and then blocked
me. How long will it take before this family sees that she is an out of
control psychotic bitch.. and that she should not be allowed to do
this. I am at the point where I will NEVER try again.. I event sent an
email to crystal saying.. WHY WHY.. i didn't say anything bad.. I didn't
even say anything to her .. but crystal deleted my comments on the pic
saying i was done with trying and i said i was hurt by that.she said OH
Amy didn't know that I was not blocked
and she just didn't want the fighting to start again. REALLY... then
hold HER accountable. OK ITS AN OPEN GROUP ON FACEBOOK--anyone can
join.but because she controls this family.. NO ONE STANDS UP TO HER.. I
really hope that the people that have a relationship with her ENJOY the
one sidedness that you get in return.. NO one stands up to her.. because
of her "ISSUES" and we all know what they are "REAL OR NOT" I'm
done.. I'm so fucking done.. I try to talk to people about it.. and the
end result is.. you need to be the person that takes the high road...
guess what.. I tried.. I attempted to go back and join in to slowly
become part of something that I know we all enjoy.. and you know what..
THAT GIRL has ruined DISNEY for me.
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VICKI'S message [Mar. 11th, 2012|09:43 am]
Christopher Ian Sterling

VICKI'S message, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

I didn't go off on her.. I finally responded to her fucking bitchy comments.. and called her out on shit that NO ONE EVER DOES.. and this is the response I get from her Mother who has enabled her daughter to become the bitch that she is.

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The tale of the perfect Grilled Cheese [Nov. 5th, 2011|04:58 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
First you take out the perfect white bread.  Soft, doughy, ready to be grilled to perfection.

Lay out the bread, add butter, lay down the exact amount of cheese that you know when grilled will melt perfectly filling every corner, edge to edge with hot gooey goodness.

Put the pan on the stove, turn the knob on to heat it up... just waiting for that sizzling sound of the butter hitting the hot pan as you add the bread.
Wait just wait.. you know the sound when you hear it sizzling, cracking, the crunchy sound as the bread changes  to that perfect browned color.

You slowly slide the spatula under the edge of the corner.. will it lift.. has it browned enough to let it lift from the pan,  YES .. oh its gonna be good.   You start to slid under the entire piece of bread, lift up and then you FLIP..

As you turn it over you see the first glimpse of the ULTIMATE, amazingly browned grilled piece of bread.  You know that it is going to taste like nothing you have ever had before.

You hear the sizzle as the other side hits the hot pan…. You can’t wait for it to be done.

Then you hear the email notification.. you go to check what interesting news just came in.

Then the horror... The smell, the realization that you maybe forgot for just a second too long.

Time to Start over…..
 
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Talking Santa postcard [Dec. 19th, 2010|01:54 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

Talking Santa postcard, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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QUESTION [Dec. 18th, 2010|09:43 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
Should I shave off all my facial hair.. and scare the little children of the world???
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hmmmmmm [Dec. 18th, 2010|04:23 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
So today was an almost no internet day.. no TV.. I took a nap for 4 hours, started and finished a new book.. it was nice. Now what to do...
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View from my deck tonight Mt Ranier [Dec. 17th, 2010|03:58 pm]
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I AM SO EXCITED>> [Dec. 10th, 2010|07:06 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

MY NEW APT
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I got the keys today [Dec. 10th, 2010|06:10 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

I got the keys today, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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VIEW FROM THE NEW APT [Dec. 4th, 2010|07:10 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

VIEW FROM THE NEW APT, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

Still waiting to get a move in date.. but it's mine.

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I wanna look like my PS3 Character [Nov. 28th, 2010|10:00 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

MY PS3-Home Character, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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just wondering [Nov. 27th, 2010|11:57 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
I want to find an apt building like in Armistead Maupins Tales of the city.. anyone know of any like that in Seattle
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OMG!!!! [Nov. 26th, 2010|11:52 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

I want to live in Knots Landing.. or Falcon Crest .. Or Fantasy Island.. Can any of you understand?????

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Do yo really not know what side your tank is on??? [Nov. 26th, 2010|04:26 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

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Can she get any closer??? [Nov. 25th, 2010|01:26 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

Can she get any closer???, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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Classy stuff at Ross. Lol [Nov. 21st, 2010|01:58 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

Classy stuff at Ross. Lol, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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I'm in your pants @ Beth's cafe [Nov. 21st, 2010|07:48 am]
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grrrrr [Nov. 14th, 2010|11:18 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
I hate that i don't feel a part of the Bear community.. or the chub community...I feel a part of nothing at all....
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GIFTS FROM DOWN UNDER [Nov. 14th, 2010|06:42 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

GIFTS FROM DOWN UNDER, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

joncub you rock.. thank you so so so so much.. HUGE HUGS BUDDY.. he even included a moustrap HAHAHAHA

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One tough fish!!!! [Nov. 12th, 2010|05:46 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

One tough fish!!!!, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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YAYYYY [Nov. 10th, 2010|08:18 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
SO Qwest 40mbps download ordered for next wednesday yay for fast internet again.. and my new DVD came in tonight.. its gonna be a busy night.. LOL
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YAYYY FOR THE G2 and Tethering [Nov. 5th, 2010|09:27 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
OMG I love the latest update for my G2 android phone. I can now use it as a wifi hotspot. or usb tether. YAY FOR INTERNET AT HOME AGAIN
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final_set_flickr-00653 [Nov. 3rd, 2010|09:57 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

final_set_flickr-00653, originally uploaded by Ahunter.org.

WOW!!!!

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BETTER VIEW OF NEW APT [Nov. 2nd, 2010|05:29 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

BETTER VIEW OF NEW APT, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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NEW APT KITCHEN [Nov. 2nd, 2010|04:57 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

NEW APT KITCHEN, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

Potential New Apt

This is the new apt.. right now it has carpet., but it will have light Maple hardwood floors.

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LATEST ATTACK FROM SKITTLES [Nov. 1st, 2010|11:22 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

I am so over this damn cat.

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Chicken potstickers cheesecake factory [Oct. 31st, 2010|09:06 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

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BONE SUCKING SAUCE [Oct. 31st, 2010|02:19 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

BONE SUCKING SAUCE, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

YOU CAN GET THIS AT BILL THE BUTCHER... LOOK IN THE ALBUM TO SEE BEAU FROM BILL THE BUTCHER.. GRIN.....

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Look who I got to help walk today! ,superdog and sailor girl [Oct. 31st, 2010|11:45 am]
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Why does this flaming ball shine so early [Oct. 31st, 2010|08:32 am]
Christopher Ian Sterling

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Skittles-Thinks my costume is weird [Oct. 29th, 2010|09:27 pm]
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HEY PEEPS [Oct. 28th, 2010|09:22 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

HEY PEEPS, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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I WONDER SOMETIMES.. [Oct. 27th, 2010|09:47 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
WOULD ELECTRO SHOCK THERAPY HELP????
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I'm so so Excited. [Oct. 26th, 2010|07:27 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
They changed my hours at work.. so starting Monday I will now be working 6am-230p ... so so so much better.



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Ham & Cheese Crescent Roll Up [Oct. 25th, 2010|08:35 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

I MADE THEM WITH TURKEY AND CHEESE TOO.. SO DAMN GOOD

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HIDE YO KIDS HIDE YO WIFE [Oct. 25th, 2010|10:07 am]
Christopher Ian Sterling

2eauws6, originally uploaded by lizzanatorr.

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POSSIBLE NEW APT [Oct. 24th, 2010|09:27 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

So I have been talking about moving to a new apt.. Something that is cheaper.. and would either save me money or give me money to spend.  WELL  I looked at another apt in my building.. It would get rid of my den.. that I don’t use for work anymore.. but it is actually bigger.  It is on the 6th floor of the building.. TOP floor.. SOUTHERN view.. .which is amazing.. and would allow me to have dish network.. so my tv cost would be cheaper per month.  I would have Pergo floors.. so no carpet to worry about.. it has an open floor plan and a huge island in the kitchen.. Lots of light.. it might be a little more expensive.. but I think it would be worth it..  it would be about 1500 a month for rent , parking, and  gas sewer and garbage.. I just don’t know.. If I move.. I would have to get rid of Skittles.. I just cant deal with the hair and the amount that she attacks me anymore.

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There's something about Chris [Oct. 21st, 2010|07:00 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

After seeing the pic of Jared.. HAHAHA

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JUST JARED [Oct. 21st, 2010|06:59 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

JUST JARED, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

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Pre-Measured Spices [Oct. 20th, 2010|09:23 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

Pre-Measured Spices, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

Have any of you seen these.. they look kinda cool...

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Foggy early morning [Oct. 13th, 2010|07:10 am]
Christopher Ian Sterling



Foggy early morning



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I need Opinions.. [Oct. 10th, 2010|03:46 am]
Christopher Ian Sterling
This Friday the 15th i will be turning 41.. I have always lived with family or room mates except for the last 4 years.  I pay 1410.00 a month for rent.. My lease is up at the end of January.. and I am wondering if I should move back to a room mate situation..   What tempts me is that the other day a friend told me a room in his place was opening and it was only 475 a month including utilities.. OMG.. to save or have a 1000 a month to spend.. the thought of being able to pay off all my debt.. have money every month for savings.. and possibly to get the car that i have always wanted..  is it worth the problems or room mates again.. labeling food.. dealing with noisy people. not being able to walk around in my underwear.  Sharing a bathroom Stuff like that.. Yes I know that I could move to a cheaper place.. but this is the issue.

to get a cheaper place.. I have to
1. give up my washer and dryer in the unit
2. not have secured parking
3. live in a possibly older building that might have bugs.. ( I am paranoid about that due to a prior living situation I could not control)
MOVE OFF THE HILL....
If I move off the hill.. I will never go out.. its just too inconvienant if i drink  to get home.. and i wont drink and drive.. I can tell you when i lived in burien and west seattle..  I NEVER WENT OUT.. and even if i don't go out that often.. living on the hill and the possibility of being able to go out makes life and choices better.

Also having room mates.. I think would make it better in that I would not as lonely all the time..
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YUMMM ANY ONE HUNGRY [Oct. 8th, 2010|05:35 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

YUMMM ANY ONE HUNGRY, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.
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DIRECT TV SUCK [Oct. 6th, 2010|09:12 am]
Christopher Ian Sterling

So no where in the entire order process with DISH TV.. did ANYONE ask if I had a southern View... Might have helped and saved a lot of time with the installer that came and wasted his time.. and the fact that I took off work early to let them in.. TOTAL WASTE OF TIME.

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Does any one know what kind of tree this is ??? [Oct. 3rd, 2010|10:10 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

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RAINBOW IN THE CLOUDS [Oct. 3rd, 2010|06:25 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling

RAINBOW IN THE CLOUDS, originally uploaded by chrisinseattle.

Can you see it?

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The freeloader fork [Oct. 1st, 2010|12:29 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling



for that friend that's always asking to try a bite



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MARVIN IS A FUCKING ASSHOLE. grrrrrrr [Sep. 30th, 2010|10:58 pm]
Christopher Ian Sterling
i dont 't need to say more.. i really don't need to say more... but i totally know   what he did   jerk
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My Hair is getting Longer--and what's with the Grey Streak in the Front.. WTF [Sep. 27th, 2010|09:45 pm]
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